10.22.07
It’s Over
It’s a damn shame when you see two women fighting over a man. Where’s the dignity and self-confidence? Take for instance the video, “The Boy is Mine” starring Brandy and Monica. These two beautiful ladies arguing about a guy. In this situation, however the guy was a player. Is it validation that you’re seeking? The sad reality is when two women argue over a man, the only winner is the man who usually is not worthy. Where is the sisterhood? Let’s take a look!
I can understand why one would feel the need to fight to keep a man especially since we pretty much outnumber them eight to one, but to embarrass yourself–now that is another story.
Although I have never fought over a man because it’s child’s play, ridiculous, and quite demeaning, I have heard and seen it happen. I just can’t understand why a woman would even bother with it except if she was INSECURE with herself.
Insecurity, whether we choose to accept it or not, puts us in vulnerable positions which lead to senseless behavior.
We are all grown, well at least I would like to think so, and that means we need to get over ourselves.
If a significant other chooses not to love us anymore then let it go. Harassing and stalking the person and embarassing yourself by looking pathetic is not going to increase your chances of rekindling the old flame. It will only push him or her further away. I mean think about it for a second.
Can you imagine yourself returning to your boyfriend or girlfriend after he or she has called you over five times and constantly interrogates you as if you were a criminal? I don’t think so. If you yourself were in your right frame of mind, you would assume that this person has lost his or her damn mind and you need to keep your distance for your own safety.
In the end, your unacceptable behavior adds to the list of other issues that arose in the relationship which led to its demise.
10.14.07
It’s Official….I’m A College Grad!
Almost five months after I walked down the aisle in my graduation robe that hot Thursday morning and moved my tassel over to the other side, I can finally say that I am an OFFICIAL college graduate.
Right about now you probably have the look of confusion on your face, but let me explain. My graduation date was May 31, 2007. Unfortunately, I took an elective course whose professor “accidentally” failed me. I think it’s just too coincidental that as a graduating senior he happened to give me an F when I really earned a C-. The fact that he was so passive and lackadaisical in changing my grade so that they would correct HIS mistake on my transcript and finally release my diploma was atrocious.
Anyway, it’s finally in the past and for that I am grateful.
Brooklyn College Millenium Alumni Association here I come to get my beautiful, long overdue golden i.d. card!
10.10.07
Table for One
Why is it so hard for me to accept the fact that I am once again single? Why do these thoughts continue to pass through my mind? Is there something wrong with not having a man? Why can’t I just be happy being by myself? Maybe it’s because I have always had a need for someone to be with me. Do I love myself? The funny thing is I don’t even think I want to answer that question because I’m afraid of the answer.
It’s never enough. I set standards so high that they are unreachable at times. Yet I get so easily frustrated when I don’t. Does it even make sense? I want to cry. I want love. I miss it. I need it. I can’t live without it. I keep thinking about my last ex-boyfriend. Should we reconcile or should I be strong enough and keep away? It’s not easy. My heart is so confused. I am hurting why can’t anyone see?
Since I started dating I have never been alone for this long. I have been out of a relationship for over a year and it’s not getting any easier. I keep thinking about the past, reliving old memories and emotions. I miss it all.
I am really trying this whole trust thing. Trust God first and he’ll take care of the rest. Trusting God to get these things done is not an easy thing to do. I am trying so hard but I can’t help but wonder what lies ahead for my heart. I have constantly been in control. I don’t know what to expect. Will I ever find him? Do I know him already?A Where is he? Am I ready? Will I ever get over my last ex-boyfriend? I don’t know the answers to these questions and that’s what scares me the most. The fact that I don’t know concerns me. When will these answers be revealed? I don’t know, only time will tell.