For twelve hours I laid there, undisturbed and fast asleep. After a hectic weekend and erratic sleep schedule, my body had had enough. Tired, annoyed, and frustrated–it was time to finally rest.
From sunrise to sunset, I was unaware of what occurred amongst my family. I knew not what had even occurred that day. For twelve hours, I was out of touch to the world and it felt quite good actually, quite peaceful.
I awoke finally, to catch up on what I had missed.
It’s amazing the extent to which we push ourselves. Every day we wake up, by God’s grace of course, and we just go full speed ahead. We push through fatigue, hunger, thirst, pain, emotions to accomplish the many things we have deemed important enough above our own wellbeing.
Why? What’s our motivation? Is it success? wealth? advancement? family? Well whatever it is, can we truly say that it’s worth putting our physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual welfare at risk?
Time and time again, I’ve been told by caring friends to slow it down before I wind up in the hospital, unable to care for myself. Time and time again, I’ve been told that I care so much for others, but who looks after me? Time and time again, I’ve been told if I become ill, I’ll be no good to anyone–not even myself.
Sadly, I’ve never fully heeded those warnings. Luckily, things have not come to that extreme, but I have come close a few times.
Yesterday, I had to admit to myself and others that I do not even have time for myself and it’s about time I did something about it. Enough with the last minute requests and emergency calls. Enough with I need a favor or two. Enough with you were the first person that came to mind or I knew I could depend on you. ENOUGH!
Too many times have I had to bail others out and left with no one to bail me out. This disastrous cycle has to come to an end. Priorities differ from person to person. Quite frankly, I’ve put the world ahead of my family and myself. Time to turn things upside down.
I know that many of you can relate and have gone through a similar experience. Then, there are those who will adamantly deny that they’re in the same boat and it’s ok. You’ll eventually come to see the errors of your way soon enough.
